头疼啦！

随着论文告一段落，好像有点迷惑了．漫长人生，跟我想象的差了点点．本来完了论文，不知天高地厚的我，还想到处去旅游，毕竟从form5毕业到现在，都马不停蹄的为了“钱途”而冲．可是，梦归梦，醒来了，就得脚踏实地，不能那么自私！

这阵子,的确对“钱途” 有了不同的视野，开始积极找工．在找工的当儿，才真真发现找工不难，但想找什么工，才是最难的！我竟然对着我的cover letter，呆住了。 我 怎么没想过呢? 你想做什么？你做过什么？你最擅长的地方是什么？你比别人强么？哇牢，毫无头绪的我，像风吹的杂草，随风摇摆，犹豫不决！ 想起当初为了那个瀑布而去读的学校，真的够勇敢！到头来，毕业了，都不懂能做什么。 一间大公司，我竟然去看他们organisation chart, 有够笨的。chart 里面的人头仔，肯定不少来头啦！ 而我申请的只是个芝麻绿豆的职位，又怎会出现在那儿呢！老师从小叫我们写的citacita saya, 根本是派不上用场的。 我的 peniaga 都可以被老师错写为penjaga. 是个预兆吗？以前要做的工，来来去去就是那几样，教师啊，警察啊，商人啊，医生，护士，空姐，飞机师。好像世界只有这几个职业。哈哈。甚至连我的侄女都会写， I want to be a princess in the future! = = 这就是画在纸张，和花在纸币的分别！谁不想要天天起床，都是阳光普照的一天，做自己喜欢的工作。  但又有多少个有这个能耐呢？

自己也搞不懂自己， 少了DD信心，多了DD担心. 徘徊了，典型的办公室职员或是到处创业绩的上班族？或许第一步就很害怕跌倒！鼓起勇气寄了几封信给想进的公司， 却到头来想退缩，还矛盾地希望没有人打来！真需要一番鼓励的话, 谁能推我一把? 做工的朋友或许早就把你们当初见工的害怕忘得一干二净了，从你们口中说出来的，是没什么大不了的东西，但是，看来我还没办法达到那个高境界吧！说真的，我起初只想当幼稚园老师， 对！就是每次会被气到五孔生烟的小恶魔受害者。但是, 看来我还是被现实概念笼罩着！ 

有没有试过问问天？ 反正你们高高在上，应该看得最清楚世界的动态，从一开始你们就盖个印给我们，分配我们不同的工作，我们从小就加把劲练习，不就得了吗？就不会有那些失业的疯癫人士为了工作而提早上天拜访咯！你好我好嘛！

破坏女王

一大早就发功

发挥我破坏女王的功力

你也太脆弱了吧！

我只是稍微凹一凹

平时应该多训练嘛！

能屈能伸才好啊！

都拿你没办法了！气死人

果然跟Plug没缘咯！ 

曾师奶果然没说错

到我手的东西

果然都很快坏！

但是，我是冤枉的啊！


欺负人家的

Drive in the Rain - break record

It was raining cats and dogs, strikes of lightning could be seen every minute.  

brilliantly, i wore my sunglasses, REALLY scare of the lightning; 
if nt mistaken, the brake was stepped unconsciously once the lighting stroke!
sorry to the drivers tailing me...
  LOL

road condition became worsen due to the floods everywhere. 
*water level was high, reaching half the height of SASA*
OMG

 before reaching the house, there is a slope which was flooded with water too
Sasa nearly broke down in the middle of the road due to the high water level 
but lady luck was with us
heehee

Reached safely finally.  
that night, suddenly was questioned by the brilliant Deardear, 
where is Sasa's Plat Number? 

1.  hah! how come?
2.   eeee.... Not my fault ! kekeke
3.  Better RUN 1st
4.  today restDAY! boh bian , can't go out d..sobsob

SueyNYA.. yeah, speechless either

today really is a blurred Suey Monday.

on the road

• heavy rain pour + Poor eyesight + biggie slow moving lorry = blocked the signboard, wrong road taken
• taken SMART LANE for twice, rm 4 gone! 
• had my U-turn and nearly banged to a van which didnt' on the front lights! 
• even on the return trip also, almost lost of direction, luckily dear be my manual GPS

In the uni

• reached Uni, parked a lil far from the entrance, only found no umbrella in my car
• partially wet and went into aircond room for 2 hours plus > FREEZing cold

Nighttime @ midvalley

• wish to shop for some facial products, but only realised my purse was in my car.  I forgotten to put into my bag. Dear was away to settle his things...geram with myself!  
• before entering cinema, eventually tot the tix were with my dear, searching all his pockets and mine, only found that it is resting in my bag!!

IS TIME TO WAKE UP! you lil dumbie...aiks... speechless

大头虾

虾胶~
虾面~
大虾~
虾羔~
虾云吞~
龙虾~
虾饼

才发现原来我爱的食物都会跟虾扯上关系

厉害到，连去旷街，

都会连水壶， 最爱的，最后一个多拉A梦水壶放在柜台上！

呜呜。。

没了没了, 没有一只多拉Ａ梦的水壶了！罢喝水了！ 

CounterPain Toothpaste ==

心血来潮的，就6人行，杀到槟城一趟了。2辆车，同个目标，往"重量级"前进。 哈哈
到了槟城，看的是一栋栋的高楼大厦，吃的是赞赞的街头美食，讲的是流利的福建话，住的是简而洁的阿巴门。 这样的短短两天一夜，足以满足我们的流浪记。
char kuey tiao, char kuek gak, har mee, dim sum and etc... hurm.... 这些事物都会比较油腻。 让我印象最深刻， 且非常欣赏的是， 他们的食材斤两十足，一点都不吝啬。大大的虾，就是证据。哈哈。盘盘都被点缀着鲜而甜的肉肉虾， 引诱极了！ 好棒哦！

但这次， 还真的因为吃太多虾，还真的变了大头虾。厉害到， 竟然把counter pain 当牙膏往嘴里塞！哦买伽！ 真的是让人哭笑不得啊！结果整个舌头痛到麻了。 也不懂怎么办，心里急死了。 嘴巴都是辣辣刺痛的。那刻的我， 只想听到“没事的，没事的”努力哄着自己只是小事一宗。但不果。 他担心，他皱眉，他的不知所措， 让我感到害怕！让我觉得不安，忍住了框边的眼泪， 反而对他说没关系，我没事！
我明白他的担心，因为他觉得很无助，慌了，又帮不上我。 过去了，自己要当心点啦！还有那么遥远的路途，真不想拖累人，成为他的抱负！

Blurrish expensive MOrning

Finding the road heading Jalan Pantai Bharu as told by HIM, it was a turning up hill and i thought that was the entrance leading me to the TM tower.  i signaled n drive in.  YI? i wondered y the road was so narrow, problem is, it was getting MORE narrow the further i go.  i look into my back mirror.. oh gosh! i was surrounded by Motorcycles..  erm hei gua.!!! I was in the motorcycles LANE!  in less than 10 minutes, saw something that i could not reflect what shall i do.

i saw a narrow bridge in front.  it was as narrow as those pedestrian's crossing.  i slowed down n stopped aside, those motorists who passed by, starred at me n shook their heads!  i cannot koastan because the road is one way traffic.  Without any other option, i tekan minyak n go.. luckily sasa is slim enough to cross. memang ngam ngam fit only.. hak sei!

FInally find my way to the Tm Tower.  Driving into the TM tower while seeking for a shade for car park.. Indoor car parks are strictly for staff.  Signboard of "Full" are always the entrance blocker. Along the road, i saw outdoor car parks too, there are almost 4 car parks there.  I was shocked when seeing the signboard written " rm 8 per entry" oh gosh! am i seeing wrongly? i headed forward, lagi suey, rm 10 per entry can be seen from far

walao, PER ENTRY leh, even much expensive than those high end shopping malls. potong leher.   this is the notice i saw putting on the "car guard" booth.

Today is an expensive MORNING! kaka

很累很累的一天

今天是很累很累的一天@@

早上要当小当家，曾师奶把整间家的日常用品都给了我负责。

一早就冲上了giant, 完全发挥了我大大力士的作用。 扛了２４罐装１００plus 上车。就飞去了新家。 

看着手中的地图，果然是有要用很多脑力的。><我就是没带，错了再错，就是最讨厌看见分岔路，太令我头痛了吧！有个习惯，就是不懂得选时，总是很自然的往直走。 果然是木的！ 就是没有一次会对的。咔咔

很无助， 又笨到不会报告自己的位置，阿姨也被我搞到头冒烟。哈哈。但是，很开心，他打来了， 当我真得不知所措时，电话响了。谢谢你！^^ 他要驾过去为我带路，也太体贴了咯。 但是也不能因为我，影响工作时间啦。所以还是拒绝了，慢慢摸索，终于来到一个地方， 跟阿姨会面了。怎料，有些功夫还在进行着， 我也不能入计划进行，当时还真的很气，大老远道，却白走了， 肚子咕噜咕噜叫，又约了姐妹们（不能爽约）。结果又飘逸地回家。 不会吧！多谢咯蕉赖的牌，再一次用了长达４５分钟才到蕉赖。果然是漫长路途

终于可以见到姐妹了，还算是蛮开心的下午，但５ｐｍ有得赶去新屋多一趟了。 还是错，这次算很好了，因为大约有比较深刻印象。 但是回家的路却更够力。 从ｓｕｎｗａｙ去到damansara. 根本是跟我的目的地反方向的。这次不知为何，还真的不敢打电话了。 他们应该也会嫌烦了吧！当时受挫力很大，一个人连回家也会迷路。真是败给自己。哥哥比较熟路，但这一次他都无言了。我也不敢问了。毕竟他可能有东西烦着。不想给他添麻烦。 dear太好了，完全明白我的疲惫，但那时交通实在太过拥挤了，自已已经没勇气跟他讲我又迷路了。结果就晚了回家，害到大家都在等我呢！够大牌的！ 

驾车真的是一门高学问， 且油缸满更重要，哈哈。

真的很生气自己，还是忍了下来。笑一笑，没事的。小事一宗， 也不想然你们担心。 大头虾果然是名不虚传。只怪自己没看好地图就启程！

捕祸星期日

星期日的早上，就被一大堆责骂的口水淹住了。  昨天，是我接那通电话，是我下单，我不熟手，也少接触，没人能问。缺了一样东西， 就是我的错，你们也不想一想，你们自己也是经手人。从送货到收货，又一个下午和一个晚上给你们，也没察觉少了样东西。早上要用了，才来检查， 才发现少了。对，又是我的错！

哄着自己，算我倒霉了，你们一定是还没吃早餐，火药比较重。呜呜呜。。我肚子除了早餐，算是还可以给丞相划船。亨！

够力的，也很无助，中楷师傅~爷爷都还没回到店嘛，大家就只会问怎么办。现在不是骂的时候啦，我想办法就是了。先说声很抱歉，对不起（给姓周的家人）。 现在剩下的办法就只有它。 这也是唯一的办法了。

祸是我闯出的， 我应对我的错负责，但也算你倒霉。哈哈。我拿起了久违的墨水和笔，就开工了！本来这一切都不可能我这个k列feh 搞定，但是没办法了， 时间怕赶不上，爷爷又还没回来，妈妈又不在，别人是要拿去葬礼仪式， 蛮赶着用的。 对不起，很抱歉

挥了几画，超级无敌丑，真的有毁爷爷的名声！以下就是我写的一部分，献丑了。不要有下一次就好。对不起！

Mini Cameron

Searching high n low, where did i put? 

No idea flashed thru my cocoNut! 

aiks... where i missplaced my handphone this time

Heart beats increased, 

even at the peak when xi lai also notice i was finding my hp

i went back to the car which i drove out half an hour ago

unfortunately the phone isn;t there.  

WE tried to call the phone yet still got no respond, only realise i put into silent mode..

OMG , how? why ? when?  where? who? 

question flooded the mind

i went back to then plastic bag of  my shopping goodies still found nothing! 

Silly-ly, i opened the refrigerator, looked into the bag, where my newly bought vitagen was placed

Awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww

My samsung S*** was inside lying on the bag

which means, it was experienced half hour mini Cameron highlands's weather....ha chew.........

really in sane! 

what happen to my cocoNUTz,,,,,,!

Wrong Cinema?

 

We rushed all the way to cinema, for the movie TOY STORY.

Since I was the one holding the tickets, proudly, i led the way to the cinema 13. 

We were shock when we found that our seats were actually separated, different from what i had viewed and chosen upon purchasing.  

Without second thought, i sat separately with them. 

Brilliantly, gorgor walked out, only found out that we were in THE WRONG CINEMA!

Oh gosh! What a fishy day!!

 

Diamonds were made under pressure!

Getting lost. Lost of direction.  Admitting that escaping from the matter is not helping.  Deep in the bottom of heart, I saw twigs and tugs along my road.  I am timid and loads of excuses were made to prevent stepping forward.  Lacking of confidence and the support, i started to tremble, synonyms to the chicks crossing the road, moving forward without the direstions .  Got confused.  Stood in front of the forked future road, with numbed legs.  Despite that,  even the nearest Thesis and Viva were unsetlled.  

Reluctance for the farewell hold me back in place too.  Supposingly, internship going to an end, i shall be on the cloud 9, having freed from the loonng working hours, having no workplace pressure.  but negative bad hats in the mind kept reminding me on the farewell of my deary friends.  I understand it was a norm of life, but the heart was too heavy to accept the fact.  The memories again fashed across my mind.  Sad to bid good bye to my friend, who have been supportive throughtout my Uni life and grabbing my hands tight and pushing me forward when i was fell and slowed back my steps.  Rivulet of tears formed in the middle of the night when i think of losing their hugs and the comforting taps on the shoulders.  My heart will remember the shelter you have given.   "Do what you wish, Walk where you hope, remember that  I'll always back you up, my friend!."  =) 

Held up my binocular, focused out to the sea and amused by the spectacular seaview which was far to reach; I was not alerted that, a shark was actually swimming towards my direction.  For me temporarily, i guess looking too far isn't a goodie thing.  Taking in a deep breath, i shall find back my core of life.  Only this would help me gain back my confidence, reaching out to the stars step by step.  Diamonds were made from pressure.  Thus, I shall cope with the pressure before i could shine brightly once again! 

Now, the only answer in my coconut is i shall settle my thesis before end of July.  Whereas, for other matters, i shall put aside.  That is what i can do to keep myself moving forward. 

牙齿晒太阳了吗？

现在已是凌晨4点了，好像在跟自己赌气似的。

努力完成着那份co-op report

对， 就是交了三次给xXX，却被退回来的那份。

不到最后也不给明示

等完成了一切的一切，才说有资料提供。 

不就等于我把食物吃光了，你跟我讲原来过期了！swt ==

脑袋是空白的，扮忙碌，

翻阅着那些资料丰富的的邮件；

回想着

冥冥只是简单的一份实习报告

却成了我3个星期的噩梦！

Duedate紧紧跟随，Dean的眉头越夹越紧,  

Supervisor又催不得，Thesis又卡在一半

Viva 也还未定时间，哈哈。。。

讲到好像很严重， 快跨了似的。

安啦。看回去也只不过是点小波折啊.

琳经得起的！

但朋友们，

比起你们的烦恼

我的简直微不足道

我很希望是个好的聆听者，

给你们送上拥抱，撑着你站不稳的脚步

别气馁咯

不要从钥匙圈看世界。

我们一起加油！

恶心的发水面包

有恶心到！用电饭锅弄热面包

怎料，放面包的碟太浅

结果沸腾的水

布鲁，布鲁地

流进碟子

就酿成了发水面包的悲剧

e而且还是我最爱的面包皮

有够恶心的，把它捞起来的那一瞬间

。。。wuek。。。

好想吐哦！

瓦卡卡卡

穿拖鞋上班，不是件坏事！

准备出门上班咯
异？
怪怪的
往下看（我说看地上啦）
好轻便的感觉爽
原来穿着拖鞋上班咧！
幸亏还来得及换

到了公司， 同事心血来潮
吃麦当当早餐
拿了最爱的黑椒粉和茄酱给同事
拿回座位之际
"piek"
脚却顿时冷了下下

哦卖伽
我的高跟鞋，沾着茄酱
超恶心的。。。suey

回想起
原来把拖鞋换掉
不是一件好事
至少我的爱鞋
不会吃到番茄！

pintu oh PINTU, give me some facie la...

Wonder if i done anything sorry to the D-O-O-R!
Yeah, i meant the P-I-N-T-U

Was bang to it upteen times, even with much precautios done!

Was preparing to walk out from the washroom,

In a sudden, what i manage to catch up is,

the brown yellow wooden door swung towards me,

Not having enough time to block also,

although hand was near to the door handle

AhhhH! with the high pitched volume, i shouted reflexively.

The staff rooted at the entrance, apologyzing to me for her KUAT pushing effort..

The lesson i learned today: NEVER EVER STAND behind the door,
esp those label Pull (ur side) and Push(outside)
==!

Hmph...

Witch?

21May- 2pm
> saw DORAEMON printed cold pack
>>>Incident: The night, i was suffering from flu and slight fever...

21May - 8pm
> saw a notice from management office about the water supply disruption on 25May.
>>>Next morning i woke up, realise no longer have the water supply when i intended to take a shower.  ARGH....

22May - 8:15am
> A signboard " Careful", slippery floor"
>>> I slipped and POP GAI at the stairs there, starred by the auntie with mouth open widely..==


Is that so call future predicting? what i saw is an earlier warning before it happens! wakakakaka.... Fatt datt lo....I got "SPECIAL SENSE"

amelie! amelie!

The time was 1:51pm,

Hot sunny day;

Eaten full;

Goyangkaki-ing

Thinking n thinking

....

amelie! amelie! AMELIE!

the sounds sounds so blurrish but familiar!

the moment i jumped up from my chair

all colleagues already starring me!

omg, I DOZED OFF in the office

they called my name for more than 5 times!

what a high level i had reached! 

sense of embarass, i rushed to the meeting room

with the eyes open, mind shutted... haha

洗车记。。

Make your own animation
实在是顶不顺萨萨身上披着的那一沉厚厚的尘埃，选好了黄道吉日，
就杀到对面的油站洗车服务那边，这是第一次在kl洗车
远元就给我盯上了一个棚下的风水位，
脑都没转，椰壳也还没等它开， 就杀进去了。

奇怪？为什么他们都有一副不解的样子呢？一头雾水似的？
难道萨萨真的脏到那么严重么?
为什么隔壁的车，位置跟我反方向？
摸不着头的当儿，一个ah Neh 走了过来，
带着墨镜的我，cool cool 的回了他："Mau cuci kereta!"
他对着他的kawan笑了下，
"Ah moi, adui, sini jalan keluar la!
mau cuci kereta, jalan masuk ikut sana!!!"

什么面子/酷样顿时被封杀了。
墨镜也掉到鼻甲上了，“蛤”的一声脱口而出！
噢麦嘎！够笨的！
快快踩了油门kostan，往入口冲了。

suey 的是，出口还是站着那个ah neh;
更巧的是，ah neh 是cashier;
更gik的是, ah neh 旧事重提: "ah moi, lu tak nampak itu papan tanda?" ==!

败类。。。

很乌龙， 真的没药救
不会路回也不会紧跟别人车
眼睛不好，脚也不争气点
最终还要沦落到
脚抽筋， 停油站休息下下。

真的给你一个“服” 字
总算是个幸运日
平平安安，到家去
嘻嘻
谢谢你，sasa