Diamonds were made under pressure!

Getting lost. Lost of direction.  Admitting that escaping from the matter is not helping.  Deep in the bottom of heart, I saw twigs and tugs along my road.  I am timid and loads of excuses were made to prevent stepping forward.  Lacking of confidence and the support, i started to tremble, synonyms to the chicks crossing the road, moving forward without the direstions .  Got confused.  Stood in front of the forked future road, with numbed legs.  Despite that,  even the nearest Thesis and Viva were unsetlled.  

Reluctance for the farewell hold me back in place too.  Supposingly, internship going to an end, i shall be on the cloud 9, having freed from the loonng working hours, having no workplace pressure.  but negative bad hats in the mind kept reminding me on the farewell of my deary friends.  I understand it was a norm of life, but the heart was too heavy to accept the fact.  The memories again fashed across my mind.  Sad to bid good bye to my friend, who have been supportive throughtout my Uni life and grabbing my hands tight and pushing me forward when i was fell and slowed back my steps.  Rivulet of tears formed in the middle of the night when i think of losing their hugs and the comforting taps on the shoulders.  My heart will remember the shelter you have given.   "Do what you wish, Walk where you hope, remember that  I'll always back you up, my friend!."  =) 

Held up my binocular, focused out to the sea and amused by the spectacular seaview which was far to reach; I was not alerted that, a shark was actually swimming towards my direction.  For me temporarily, i guess looking too far isn't a goodie thing.  Taking in a deep breath, i shall find back my core of life.  Only this would help me gain back my confidence, reaching out to the stars step by step.  Diamonds were made from pressure.  Thus, I shall cope with the pressure before i could shine brightly once again! 

Now, the only answer in my coconut is i shall settle my thesis before end of July.  Whereas, for other matters, i shall put aside.  That is what i can do to keep myself moving forward.