Tetak! ...it was a scary nite!

It was a scary nite.
when we heard some ppl shouting and quarreling loudly in front of our house.
It was near to our sleeping time
10minutes before the clock stroke 12.


We jumped up the bed only after the noise volumed down.
I was afraid and asked Jack to investigate.
Jack peeped near the door and walked out, replied that nobody downstairs.
then i got my sis's phone call
OMG, i prayed so hard that nothing happen to her


Thank god, she was okay, but was terrified by the loud screaming too.


soon, 5 minutes later, gor and Carmen rushed out from their room.
"Someone kena Tetak in our porch!" He told.
OMG
Did i hear wrongly?
NOpe
Is Tetak!


From the balcony, they actually watched the tragedy
where 4 motorists with their Parang,
chasing over a middle age indian man
the victim tried to escape and jumped into my house's compound
Followed by the Parang man.
Soon, when we realised what happened.
the victim already in serious injuries,
with few cuts on his back, knee and Cut-off palm
car porch was flooded with blood!
SHIT
He begged for water but we dare not reach out for him
and the scene was scary, bloody and painful.
his hand was cut off and flewn under our car!
Without any hesitation,
gor phoned up the police and we were lucky to have a fast action team


Victim's relatives were informed and reached too
They cried and begged to send him to hospital with their own vehicles
but was rejected by the police officers
They scolded us rudely, for being cold-blooded
In our shoes,
imagine somebody lying on the bloody floor, exactly your front entrance, begging for water!
for our safety, gor and Jack were the guards,
keep us upstairs and refused to open the door.
to avoid him from "crawling" into the hse.  


argh... soon, ambulance arrived and he was taken to the hospital
and tragically,
Jack n Bro were to clean up the whole car porch,
including our cars that got the splashes of blood..


What a bloody nite!
Sorry for not able to provide the photos.
because even myself also not dare to look into the photos
@.@

Tempo-rary

Working needs passion

what is working?

work, 

something that pay u for tasking

something that filled your day

something that worth for the early wake ups

something that u expecting after the weekends

everything start with learning

although it is a temporary post

dealing with the accounts,

which stranger to me previously
but

i woke up every morning

i got the ohm to go

i enjoy ban leng leng and head to the office

the the friendly environment (although sometimes turned stressful)

i know the $ is low,

how i wish i could strive

for a better pay, higher position and greater benefits

who on earth, not wishing the same thing, aiming the same goal? 

i stood out from 1720 applicants,

i appreciate the chance given

honestly, 

i got my decision

but, somehow,

i was seeking for your agreement.

however, ..

ur wish is not what i wish to wish, and u wish i wish as the way u wish.

kind of heartbreaking for your disagreement towards me

and i felt i am tiny when 

i started to look down on myself

because of your words.

:'(

medicine week

these few days were sucks
maybe the working schedule was too hectic
and i have totally forgotten on the importance of water
ended up ~ suffer


Monday, 11:45pm, 
My dear brought me to the nearby 
University Malaya Medical Centre for consultation
after i have been complaining of feeling painful during pee pee
registration, blood presuure, consultation took us long time to queue
soon, around 1 something, i was allowed to go home, with some medications
i was diagnosed for Urinary Tract Infection
1st n 2nd day, i am still obedient, 
but then, when i sensed no pain already, i had dumped whole packets of medicine including the antibiotic
hurmm....
*now i regret*


after 2 days, 
my waist began to feel "sourish" and painful
at 1st i tot of muscle pain after long hours sitting in the office
but in fact it is not the cause


i reached office yesterday, began my daily routine work
suddenly, i felt dizzy and the feel of vomitiing,
i stopped everything, and became scared
what happen? 
i manage to drag myself to the washroom, 
and have some splashes of water
then, i began sweating. 
it is innormal when i am in the air-cond room
i began to feel cold and i know myself was in fever
i back to my place and get some rest.


during lunch time, i went to the company's panel clinic
and the bad news was,
my Urinary Tract Infection gone worsen
:(
no wonder my waist will be painful
there is where my kidney is 
i was given a half day mc and allowed to rest at home


Sorry and guilty 
because i had make my family members worry
I will be obedient and finish up the medicine.
Hopefully, will recover soon.


sobsob
p/s: medicine really so big leh

mood swing~danger

After passing up my thesis, now busy with the journal publication.  I rejected to publish my paper at 1st, but lecturer's nagging and his effort had changed my mind.  Also, i was given about 2 weeks to draft out.  In fact, i should be on the speedy mode, spending hours working on it.  However, everything just seem not right! my mood swing easily too. i become hot tempered and bossy. ; (  All stressed out and no one to choke." best described. 

what to blame? 

the hot weather, low quality sleep, boredom, loneliness n blah blah blah... what a shame!

this morning, was thinking to treat myself a goodie breakfast~mcd weekday breakfast.  what a long q when i got there.  happy enjoying my rm 4 breakfast but i was happy too soon.  my mood dropped when i ended up eating the BEEF JERKY ~RM80 ..... aiks... who to blame?  AI LIN lor.. i didnt dare to tell anyone verbally also, because it was my fault...@___@.

few days "Locked" at home,  many thoughts in my mind.  my carreer, my life, my family, my relationship, my friends, my financial issues and alot more.... therefore,  i wish i will be a man on next life, because i heard that man only think of one thing at one time, unlike women who multi-tasking always.  heee

I went to popular bookstore to make some readings.  Arrived at the parking lot, i was tricked by the wind. yes, i mean the blowing wind.  i was about to take my ticket back inside my car, who knows... whistl.......and my ticket FLEW away. Oh gosh... DANG! im so stupid! i couldnt hold a thin piece of ticket properly! I pulled the brake and get down the car to search for it.  Found it slipped under the back tyre. swt..embarassed, even though only a car queued behind.

and this week, honestly, everyday is so dull, so colourless, so moody and so not-expecting. argh..... i need a work, to clear all the negative charge! 


* I hate being Negative *

yogi de 弄巧反拙

我不想变成那个唷奇熊熊。

出发点是好，但是没有人会欣赏

大家只看成果

往往伸出的援手，

都会弄巧反拙

真的不知道是自己笨

还是更需要帮忙的本来就是自己

有时冥冥知道帮得上

却因为时间地点而误了大事

结果惹人生气，自己又不开心

多管闲事

啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊

对不起！

  

second chance

went to the 1st interview

but sadly,

i was not qualified

i felt worst 

when

my CV was passed 

to another division

and was called for interview tomorrow

aiks

perhaps

i should think from a bright side.

maybe it is a second chance given

it is a better way to reject my application with a new suggestion provided

: (

somehow,

it is heartbreaking

little inner confusion

thought of rejecting the job interview at 1st

but

think deeper, 

this is another chance, 

rejecting without trying

certainly not a wise move.

what to do?

I'll take a risk, take a chance,

make a change,

and

breakaway

~kelly clarkson~ 

it wasnt my day

just back from meeting my supervisor, for the final draft collection.  It wasn't perfect.  there are still corrections to be done.  this sentence i had repeated N times and it is annoying.  I pretty know that.   I hate when i need to make such decision.  I have to break my promise of going back Ipoh as early as i can ti help out mama in the shop.  Shop is too busy with last minute shoppers until Papa and Mama have fallen sick. But, due to my dumbiness, the thesis wasn't OKAY yet.  Supervisor had arranged some submissions and collections of the drafts on coming Friday and next Monday.  

Last few days, heard my dearest Papa had fallen sick! so heart broken and i am not filial to be able to head home straight away.  After thee meeting, i phoned up mama.  it was a hard time, because the call i making gonna break her heart.  I held up the phone for some minutes before gaining my courage to dial the number.  Mama was on the phone.  "hello, with her weak voice". T__T.   i was speechless all in a sudden. arghhhhh. 

"im so sorry " i could have say.  : (

Mama heard the news, i know there is disappointment.  but she didnt blamed.  She understand the situation.  I wish i can back tomorrow as i planned, but .......  But only left 2 days for me to finish everything and pass up on monday! weeps.. It is so difficult.  the "sorry" is so difficult to tell mama.  

i know there's sunshine behind the rain;

i know there's good times behind the pain; 

i closed my eyes and pray,

 i closed my eyes and i could see a better day.  

hope returns disappointment

sad sad..today i went to meet up the lecturer.  Who knows, he told me i have done the WRONG test analysis. The test result need to redo!  ARGHhhhh, i rooted there! y again ? weeps. please la ailin, cant you be more SING muk! scolded myself! gerrr... tears almost rolled down at that moment, feeling useless and disappointed.  even intended to give up. Yeah, i know that i m the one to be blamed.  bad news that the final thesis presentation would be in the mid of February (after cny), instead of January as planned earlier!  Sorry to my family members especially mama who kept worrying.  Sorry to all my dearest friends who had given me endless support.  Sorry to meimei and my dear to put your hope into disappointment once again.  aiks.  heart sank to the bottom and my mind is in a mess right now.  No appetite and no hope to talk at all.  JUst sorry ... sobsob.  **I know it is a small matter, but really cant help feeling useless. i will be okay, but not at this moment! 

SUMMONEs which started the suey day

today memang a suey day

i was driving to cheras

dumbiely, i used the Jalan Templer for that peak hours, 

traffic congested

but it was small case for me, 

at least i got the cool air cond, 

everything will be ok. 

lol

heading to the federal highway,

a lorry blocked the way, 

and there were small stones kept attacking

i cut the lorry and drove on the fast lane

who knows a Merz was "blowing" at behind,

i stepped on my oil paddle and began speeding 

not more than 5 minutes,

before i could brake in time or decrease my speed, 

i saw traffic slow moving in front,

i was relief because was just some road contruction.

however, when i drive nearer

shit, 

that is the police blockings,

and soon i was requested to park aside!

everything were too fast,

he held my ic n driving license ,

began saying rm 300 for summone , 

soon, name was writtten down. 

"ah moi, pandu baik baik ya" 

warned the police uncle before i winded up my window

@@

suey

my rm 300 gone for speeding

n no negotiation was made! 

GGEEEERRRRRR

mou yam gong a! 

that is so called " meeting the TIGERS once in a blue moon if u  are faulty frequently" 

finally reached the Uni

i stepped out from the car, 

even myself also shock, 

when i realised something so familiar on my foot.

GOSH, home slippers! 

i had wore my flipflops to school.

embarrassing esp the day was crowded with students

i kept my head down, 

with my sun glasses, 

headed straight to lecturer office

then run away the fastest 100m i have ever make.

but still, consider lucky 

to get some freebies ice apple tea 

on the way to take my car.

i put into my bag and left with a smile

who knows, i walked half way 

only realised the can was LEAKING! 

CRAP!

Purse and my files were bathed in the AppleTEA! 

sticky n smells jerk!

heading home, with unbalance emotion lol 

made my way turning into NPE,

what? 

another groups of hungry police waiting

2nd road blocks i met in a day! 

but this one i didnt kena! 

touchwood! 

i remmeber last week only i told him

i hardly met the police along that way! 

really WU NGAH mouth!

but, for another point of view, 

it was 1 month before the new year

meaning i 小财不出，大财不入

new year, i gonna HUAT ar! lol  

挨吧，多点点就会天晴了！

也怪不了谁，自己不争气罢了

整分东西重做，谈何容易阿？

对着电脑， 眼睛都快盲了

就连按滑鼠，手腕的旧患又复发

坐姿不好，腰酸背痛

几乎每天都在沙发上5-6早上睡着的

昨天睡着了， 竟然发了个奇怪梦，

有伤心到， 吓到脚突然踢一踢，原来是做梦！

今天做东西真的做到很累了

脑子根本就是空的

还试了几个方法安慰自己

香蕉可以让人开心，吃了两条, 觉得腻多过开心

葡萄干可以益脑，也吃了（可能是没脑，何来益脑？）

还破戒吃了久违的cintan Mee asli, 

好像变成内疚比较多。 

甚至坐在沙发上放空到睡着咧，够力！

（另个角度，就是打坐的最高境界）

哈哈，没什么大不了啦，

方言说：天仲未啉，仲有得啉！

我们还是 一样的活，明天太阳还是照样升起，

我应该不会那么容易被打倒吧！

酱容易被打倒，

感觉是被口水淹死，或被鼻屎弹伤！

哈哈哈

别太执着

看见老师用心地改，满纸红卜卜，

还有很认真的跟我讨论我的论文草稿时，

就觉得自己要争气点，

偷懒完毕。开工咯~

你也是啊！

看见网上的她，画画很不错，

a pictures worth a thousand words! 

加油！ 

不妨去去看看！ 

suey tuesday... =(

what a tuesday night! 

Grandpa need to attend his friend's son wedding dinner.  Ensuring the safety of grandpa, i become the AHMAD [driver].  After dropping grandpa at the restaurant, grandma n i headed home.

Everything were smooth as planned.  around 9:30pm, i headed out to fetch grandpa.  Reaching too early, i off engine and waited him at the restaurant's entrance.  around 10:30, we were ready to leave when the car engine couldn't start.  thanks to the helpful friend of grandpa, who is a car technician.  he volunteered to go back his shop, getting the car starter for us.  Soon, MyVi is speeding on the road again.

i tot that was the end of the suey things, not until we turned into a junction, the whole town seems like electricity OFF. yeah, no street lights, no shoplots' lights, even no traffic lights.  Oh gosh, my rabun malam totally betrayed me! i knew grandpa also frightened, as really hard to see the road... worst when the road we took has many dividers.  keeping myself as calm as i can, i drove with care and my highest alert.  DUmby me even cant recognise the road.. luckily grandpa still can show me the road... aiks... {seldom go back from that way} ...

finally back to house.  Surprisingly, grandma who usually slept at this hours was sitting in the living room's sofa.. oh gosh, i remembered i asked grandpa on the way back, he was very SURE grandma wont wait us at home. aiks aiks.. more serious was when i sat down beside her, comforting her while explaining the incident, i saw TEARS in her eyes..

  

weeps.. sorry.  i can felt her helplessness and worries. She has no phone, only can sit there waiting both of us return.  She told :" I lied on the bed, waited till 10:30pm also haven see you guys coming back. finally walked out to the living room, worrying where have u all been.  both of you, 1 is already agey  old man, another one a very young girl.  How can i sleep, without seeing you guys return. I was so worry, but i can do nothing, except waiting. "  

My heart broke into pieces.   A sense of failure strucked me! i didn't think of the consequences and the IN CASE! today is really in low mood.... but i m still lucky to be able to hug my both grandparents before gao gao G. muaks....

..... *crossing fingers* ~grandma, get well soon

today is a busy day.... accompany grandma to hospital.  Grandma had been complaining on the knee pain since back from the massage few days ago.  Worried and sad to see her struggling to walk.  This morning, her left leg was in zero engergy level, even unable to lift up.  =(

after x-ray, 2 steroids injections and 15cc fluid elicited from knee.. 

no breaking bones, no muscles tears, no inflammation

Ah po, be tough o... Bunny year is on its way, ur biggie year of 84-years old.  wishing upon the stars, hoping u to GET well SOON  and strictly no more falling down!! ...muak muaks .  

Blah blah blah

today early morning got the naggingSS! aiks aiks.. memang tak tahan
i really tried my best to make all things perfect, clean and tidy, yet still not enough
gERRrrr , really got geram when pa asked me to clean every day bit by bit, which i was doing all this while...


*TUm TUM TUM* releasing the stress!

But, i lhad earned something.
Parents' trip to kl, those mumbles remind me of myself,
was told that i m loooooooooong gase, which synonyms as ANNOYING..
okies... i guess i shall learn more on keeping silence
nobody like to be nagged!
ANyway, sounds hurt too when i was told making too much mumbles n noise
weeps.... i shudn't acting this...
MUST MUST , MUST try to calm n let ppl's mind clear!
Suey, I m really a talented BAD attention-distractor..haha

end of sept, what a day!

today was a miserable day!!! 

i reached Bukit jalil around 9.05am, rushing to the ticket counters to get the malacca tickets as earlier as i could.  only manage to get a ticket of 9.45am bus to mlc.  Without any hesitation, i bought the ticket and headed to the waiting area

.  

Tik tok tik tok, time was passing slow, waited n waited, finally reached 9:35am, i walked to the 6th bus platform as instructed.  Seeking my bus MAYANG SARI, but failed.  Since habit of late was the norm of bus drivers, i waited patiencely.  Till the clock strucked 10 am, finally, MAYANG SARI was seen and parked onto the platform.  Holding my tickets, i abroaded the bus.

There were only a gal and an uncle sitting in the bus.  I scanned through the cardboard written a big wording of MELAKA, before i proceeded, finding my seat in the bus.  Sitting there, hoping bus will be leaving to mlc soon.  Unfortunately, till 10:15am, Driver still haven abroad and my ticket have not checked too.  Angrily, i got down the bus, stumbing towards the ticket counter.  Ticket sellers were busy "snatching" customers, a gal held my ticket and passed to a malay guy, before asked me to follow the guy.

Tailing the guy till the entrance, suddenly ticket was passed to another elder malay uncle, excuses was made that the guy need to entertain another customer! ok, i stood there helplessly, the uncle told me PROUDLY :"bus 10:30am!"

*SORRY in my heart* with the rude tone, i scolded :"tengok betul betul, hah! tiket 9:45am, sekarang (i pointed to the clock 10:20 am) dah pukul berapa? Bas lewat , sekarang masih tak jalan, driver pun talak, Tiket jual untuk buat apa?  ". the guy without any sense of guilt, wrote me another ticket for another bus, saying" bas ini skrg jalan, pergi platform 2 sekarang!" i decided to put my trust once more n rushed towards the 2nd platform...

from far, i heard " melaka melaka, melaka! Jalan dalam 10 minint lagi! " and yeah! that is my bus which ecxhanged! which means now i taking 10:30am bus!!! ok, i settled down in the bus, trying to calm down.i am the fool who made myself in such situation. "nothing can be fix and situation will not better even if i BOMB!" i told myself

A minute later, an indian monk abroaded, sitting opposite my front seat. Obviously, he had some difficulties in walking.  He was annoying, kept mumble all the way.  I just ignore.  But i m in a hurrry to meet up my lil sis who had waited me there!  Yet, half way on the journey, the indian monk requested for the loo. We waited 10 minutes plus.  It is reasonable to take him 10 mins plus to walk to the loo.  We did not blame him as he is partially disable.  Finally he walked to the bus door.  Surprisingly, he stopped, and began asking the driver: " Boleh pergi beli air tak?" the stall was the other direction from the toilet, we were impatience honestly, but as a respect, driver agreed with addition of "cepat sikit!".finally started back the journey.  The monk!!!!! got water got saliva, again mumbles NON stop...

30minutes later, i was in my nap, with my mp3 amplified to high volume, in order to filter away the mumbles and chase away the bad mood! Suddenly, i was tapped by the person sitting behind, only realise that monk was calling me to ask what is the time for that moment! okok, pukul dua belas i said. "HAH? apa? " PUKUL DUA BELAS!" i shouted.  He shook his head and stared me.. ish ish ....using body language, i showed him 12 with my fingers ! then, shuted my eyes once again! No EYE SEE!

Erhem! already in a really bad bad temper...still the driver was making his way through those small roads which was not planned in the route n schedule!!! Bone shaking journey all the way from alor gajah > masjid tanah > BANDAR MELAKA > sentral!  the journey took me 3 hours! an hour extra from my expectation!

after some happy hours with my lil meimei, Again, taking bus back to kl. This time, a better bus which i used to take everytime going mlc.  reaching KL, then i headed to SUbang Jaya.  

Eyes were blurred with the sharp contrast of vehicles' lights ahead.  It was dificult for me to see as my toric caused my eyes to get tired easily durng the night, esp when there are too many lights ON.  i calmed down, driving carefully.  Mind was messy because the route i familiar was congested, i turned the other way to avoid the traffic jam.  After some strugglings, finally i found my way to the housing area of subang jaya

Thx to my poor memory, contrasting the night and the day, scenery was totally different for me, n i hardly could remember my destination's address.  Started to panic, i drove into the dark housing area without any streetl ights.  I tried to remmeber every detail that was told earlier, the field, the basketfall court, Neway and everything, but it just ain't helping......aiks... hands were cold because too hungry, gastric was activating, yet, finding myself lost in the housing area.  

I took up my phone and started to call.  "dit dit, insufficient credit balance!" Oh MY GOSH! looking up to the star-less sky, reaching endless forked road, i was trembling in cold, praying hard so that i can find my way as soon as possible.  holding tight to my SASA sterring, n at last, i drove to the nearest petrol station, asking for direction! yeah, it sounds stupid but at least i finally got my way.  

Upon reaching, dumbly, i was unable to contact Him at all because out of credit.  I walked into the house, unlocking the front gate.  suddenly, A dog was in the house, starring straight into my eyes! Weeps....i stepped back.  "What i gonna do to ask DEAR come out? " i began shouted his name for twice, yet no respond.  Ideas IDeas Ideas! in that very minute, SOS topUP flashed across my mind.  finally, got to meet him up!

 

Mood was down. Speechless night. What a day! here it goes, my last day of SEPT.* thx you if you still reading this article.  it was lengthy, thx to spare ur time here....indeed i just need some listeners...arent easy to express verbally.

Asthma Vs HyperactiveRespiratorySys

today was forced to the Pantai Specialist Hospital in Ipoh.  Yesterday, i experienced some breathing difficulties, which had persisted to the next morning.  Worries increased when i felt the chest pain too.

Walking into the hospital, we headed to the receptionist.  We were asked to go for a respiratory physician.  Waited for the doctor' for more than 3 hours.  suddenly the nurse told us to go for an X-ray scanning.  it was the doctor's  msg and we were asked to go back for his consultation after 2pm. 

X-ray a! Sounds serious leh.  hmm ,realised that, this is my 1st Xray scanning.  Coincidently, mama went to the loo when my name was anounced.  OMG, timidly i walked slowly towards the nurse. the Scanning was very very fast, took not more than 10 minutes.  relief.  at 1st, i even tot of those scanning which require us to lay down macam the dental visit. haha

then soon after that, my x ray film was out, n was reported Normal. No senget lungs too.. XD. Throughout the consultation, i was flooded with so many questions.  Dunno why, i felt myself started to confuse.  especially kept asked on the time and also the frequencies.  Many uncertainties arose and i became tongue twisted, only manage to reply with some silly smile.s  aiks.  his question memang make me speechless.  Yes or No also difficult giving! no joking

then the doctor finally concluded that, my respiratory system is hyperactive and very sensitive.  the bronchi or whatever thingy are too sensitive.  the respiratory passage closed up or narrowed in when there is some intolerable condition.  And my case was in the irregular patterns. 

Since no source was identified, option available is treating as the asthma.  Doctor prescribed the ventolin inhaler for me...He reminded me to go back for his consultation if the dose he suggested wasn't enough to cope with my condition.  if that happens, means that i really got the asthma. ><

mourning for my lil doraemon tumbler... weeps

aiks，memang lun zhun,  tiring back to house in a sunny day. didn't notice i was holding my tumbler. my fav doraemon tumbler.  i loosen all things in my hand （i tot i was just holding my non-fragile bag) 

suddenly all water flashed on my feet and 2 squares of the tile flooded.. n OMG, my tumbler, severely injured

cracked tumbler

the bottom of the tumbler

sum tong a!!!!! weeps  =[